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• August 19, 2011 at 12:15 am

I really miss you. It hurts to talk to you like I don’t still love you more than almost any thing in this whole world.

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• August 13, 2011 at 11:29 am

Today, I’m going to go up to my new school and find all my classes so that I’m not completely freaking out the first week. I’m going with an old friend who will also be going to IUPUI.

I’ve decided that today I am not going to talk to him unless he says something first. I realize that he’s not going to miss me unless I leave him alone. So, I have resolved to finally give him a break. It’s just really difficult when he was my everything for three years.

There were times when I felt so guilty because I put him before God. He meant and still means so much to me. I can’t imagine not having him in my life and I’m so afraid that if I leave him alone, he’ll never come back. I keep asking God why this is happening and I haven’t heard His reply. I haven’t heard God in so long. Maybe this is why. Maybe God is suppressing our relationship because we need to take a break and focus on Him. I have to hope that God will work this out in the end. If it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t have a relationship with God. I feel like we were put into each other’s lives for a reason and that we’ve just lost sight of what is truly important. After all, the Bible does say that He is a jealous God. I need help figuring out where to start. I wish I had money. I need a new devotional. 

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• August 11, 2011 at 1:00 pm

There’s always that one person. No matter how many relationships they’ve had, how many times they didn’t respond to your text, how many times they ignored you, how many times they made you feel like you didn’t matter, how many times you sit on the floor crying because of them, or made you feel like shit; no matter how many times you say they don’t matter. Deep down, every time that they text you, look at you, give you a hug, even just say your name; your walls break down and you can’t help but be happy. Even if you don’t want to be.

(Source: dewsters)

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• August 9, 2011 at 5:08 pm

I’m so glad I wasted 3 years of my life on someone who never really loved me. I feel so cheated.

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